I know I know......

it's been to long since I have posted anything and a lot has happened since last time I posted... lets go backwards satring from today through this month. To begin, today i found out I am not graduating next week as I was told I would be. My school told me I was done with allll my work, so i stopped going. Naturally. Then my Mum got a letter in the mail saying Truency! Truency! Truency! So this came as a big shock, of course. (I jinx myself when I said "Everything that can go wrong has gone wrong, so it has to look up from here." Said yesterday.) Anywho, I called today asking what was up. I told Mrs. Harper (the princable) I was done with all my work, why did I have a truency? She proceeded to tell me I was infact not done with all mmy work and still have 5 classes to go. Imagine my surprise when she told me this as I was told I was done by someone else, and had no more classes on my agenda online. Shhhooooo, to top it all off, I asked if I had anymore classes a month ago, and someone said they would add them to my agenda. Never did so I assumed I was done when another person said, "You are done." So now I have to wait till winter to graduate, assuming I don't just say fuck it and give up. i really want to right now and I feel I should if the only reason I'm doing it now is so I don't dissappoint my already dissappointed Mother.
Now we come to yesterday adn I guess I ahve to explain the past couple of days at once in order to understand all of yesterday. So, I got kicked out of my apartment by Melanie because we had a dispute about her treating me like a dog and her not wanting to change that, I quote, "This is who I am and you will have to deal with it." So in the end of that spat she said "You should jsut go live with you Mum again, so I posted on a few things, "I need a place to live asap, I'm tired of people hurting me." So yesterday I proceeded to move my things out of her apartment with the help of Alex, (moved into Alex and Tania's house. Yay! Save haven. Thank you guys so much.)She attacked Alex as he was about to walk in the door. So she went nuts, if Alex didn't do as he did I would have kicked her ass if not killed her for attacking him. It was only him urging me to hurry and get my things out that prevented an all out (short) brawl. She called the police and they where on our side about everything and I feel better about that. Then we got all my shit out of there and that was the end of that. (I hope.) Aside form the charges Alex smartfully pressed.
Um as for the rest of the past couple of days, I have spent all day today unpacking and moving stuff. It was relaxing and a workout at the same time. I'm worn out. This is good.
Twiggy's liver is failing but she seems to be doing better, she is eating, and seems to like the new place. I worry about Autmun, Marissa and Mallory. Melanie doesn't know how to treat animals right but she is not so bad as to call animal control. I'm still debating, but i fear I would be doing it out of spite at the moment and I don't want to do that if it's not what is best for the animals.
I'm still single... pretty happy about that actually. Last thing I need right now is drama in that department, which with my luck atm, there would be something that would go horriblly wrong.
Before today I hadn't had meds since two weeks ago. I just got them yesterday after waiting forever just to have two dollars to pay for them. Plus I forgot about them yesterday. But I am good now.
Tomorrow is NERO. I can't wait. I have a great character concept, outfit, so on so forth. It should be fun even if it does rain. Rain will be fun to play in.
Everyting else I can't think of at the moment or I am not mentioning it for a reason. Toodles for now.

teehee anyone that views my facebook should check out the new profile pic closely

So I'm feeling much better. Very drugged but feel loads better. I have an interview for the same place tomorrow at 5. Very excited. We have to call the vet tomorrow morning because the cats are being wormed and vaccinated and stool samples are being checked but the doc says I should be fine. I start shadowing at the vet office come Friday afternoon permitting the job does not want me then.
Also I have to "sing" at group tomorrow. I'm thinking "Fairies" (Celtic women)check it out on youtube. It's a very beautiful song. My hair looks great today and I have no one but Mel to show it to.
One the note of Mel, finally talked her into going to the hospital to get proper test for her chest.Hopefully we get answers. Treatable answers.
I saw Amber the other day. I also saw a bunch of roaches on me the other night while I was watching good eats with Jesse. I did not freak out even though I almost jumped up and shit myself. If anyone knows me well they know I'm terrified of roaches worse then clowns. So I did good to not react. The doc said seeing a few things here and there is normal. It's a matter of how I react to them that determines what we do about it.
Anywho off to the hospital. Toodles.

I am very very sick atm.

I'm debating whether or not I want to go to the hospital again. Probably not. I am so feverish the my cloths hurt my skin. (102o) I have been crying off and on because I'm in so much pain right now. I haven't eaten but two bowls of soup in the past two days because my throat hurts so much. I kinda wonder if it's time my tonsils came out. My head is raping my brain and my ears and burning from fever and sore from fluids draining away. I am drinking water through the pain but not much. I am gargling salt water as told by the doc, and taken more thera-flu then prescribed.
On another note, I'm super depressed and angry because I had a second interview with BWWs and the manager that was suppose to interview me didn't call when he called off work.

Blue eyes red hair

So. The end of the month. "Why sir, you could almost pass for a gentleman." (random quote from the movie I'm watching.) Anyway, much has happened. I have a wonderful boyfriend, possibly a job, (at B Dubs), I have moved out with a good friend of mine and things are just going well all around. A few tiffs here and there, but nothing of to much concern.
I don't have a lot of concerns at the moment to top things off. Which in my opinion is a good thing. Just the normal things.
I've noticed though how much more prevalent other people seem to be concerned, worried, so on so forth. I want to help but generally people's problems are not my concern or jsut not something I know enough about to be able to help.

Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow

So. I am no longer single. That is all.

Teehee, no it's not. I love the guy. I really do. I want to be able to tell him on a regular bases but he is afraid of the word, for a reason I can only guess. He however be in South Carolina for my Birthday tomorrow, kinda sad but its for work so nothing I can do about it, no sense in worrying about it.

I will be turning 21. Tonight however is when we are doing the whole drinking part. Lemon drops, long island ice teas, and other cocktails nonsense. I'm kind of excited but in the long run, not really.

I'm so exhausted from all the work we have been doing to the yard. It will be worth it on the long run but for now, I have to suffer. My neck and back are killing me. I bet tomorrow is not going to be much better.

I miss my guy already. :(
Hopefully I'll see him once he gets home.

On another note, Westerville larp is up and running and as usual, fun. Come out and play.

Other then that, not much else to report atm.

I'm done doing chapter names (I can't keep track lol)

Today was a very good day. As has been the past few weeks. I don't know what OSU did or Don (my therapist) for that matter, but things have been great, my life is still pretty shitty but I have a different light on it. I haven't been sabotaging myself lately either. Big bonus.
I went for a short bike ride today, it was raining and cold and I started to get light headed. Apparently I forgot to eat before I left.
Typing without looking is getting better! BTW.
I'm still having problems with my computer. I'm beginning to hate vista more and more.
Matt and Heather are getting on well, I'm getting to know her better and she is a good match for him, I'm happy about that.
The odd thing of today was Jesse talked to me out of the blue. I'm happy he did but I'm still hurting form that whole ordeal. To better explain, we attempted to date. I went mad and blew the whole thing by being stupid and petty. He broke my heart and I can't help but still shed a tear for it once and a while. Like now so I'm going to change the subject.
We found out Pepper (our rescue cat), is 12 years old and has ear mites again.
Melanie (George) and I have been hanging out a lot and I have enjoyed the company, she helps me stay busy so I don't go crazy. George is my girl! (had to do a shout out)
We got a new Puppy! His name is Goose. The shelter named him Gray Goose but we shortened it. We think he is Wiemerinor/Sharpe mix. Others are saying lab too, we won't know till his eyes are done changing colors. Right now they are a bright blue and we think Sharpe because of the tail curl and spots on his tongue. Mum really hopes not chow but he has already proven to be very smart so far, at ten weeks!! He knows Come, sit, stay and he is almost potty trained.
I'm still waiting for SSI to come through so I'm still broke as hell. But even that has a new light. I'm slowly learning, with help, that my friends don't care about that and it's not as necessary as I was raised to believe. True I am limited to what I can do, but we don't generally do things that cost money and there seems to always be something to do. I enjoy "just hangin" (although I'm trying to convince people to get bikes so I'm not alone on bike rides lol)
It's been a while since I've updated, I've been hearing complaints as to my not doing so. So I will try to better rectify that, in the meant time, here is this one. Enjoy!

Chapter Twelve: Once again I've hurt someone without meaning to.

I'm off to the hospital again. I'm worried about my own safety and the safety of others atm. I am sabitaging my own life. This is great.