Blue eyes red hair

So. The end of the month. "Why sir, you could almost pass for a gentleman." (random quote from the movie I'm watching.) Anyway, much has happened. I have a wonderful boyfriend, possibly a job, (at B Dubs), I have moved out with a good friend of mine and things are just going well all around. A few tiffs here and there, but nothing of to much concern.
I don't have a lot of concerns at the moment to top things off. Which in my opinion is a good thing. Just the normal things.
I've noticed though how much more prevalent other people seem to be concerned, worried, so on so forth. I want to help but generally people's problems are not my concern or jsut not something I know enough about to be able to help.

Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow

So. I am no longer single. That is all.

Teehee, no it's not. I love the guy. I really do. I want to be able to tell him on a regular bases but he is afraid of the word, for a reason I can only guess. He however be in South Carolina for my Birthday tomorrow, kinda sad but its for work so nothing I can do about it, no sense in worrying about it.

I will be turning 21. Tonight however is when we are doing the whole drinking part. Lemon drops, long island ice teas, and other cocktails nonsense. I'm kind of excited but in the long run, not really.

I'm so exhausted from all the work we have been doing to the yard. It will be worth it on the long run but for now, I have to suffer. My neck and back are killing me. I bet tomorrow is not going to be much better.

I miss my guy already. :(
Hopefully I'll see him once he gets home.

On another note, Westerville larp is up and running and as usual, fun. Come out and play.

Other then that, not much else to report atm.

I'm done doing chapter names (I can't keep track lol)

Today was a very good day. As has been the past few weeks. I don't know what OSU did or Don (my therapist) for that matter, but things have been great, my life is still pretty shitty but I have a different light on it. I haven't been sabotaging myself lately either. Big bonus.
I went for a short bike ride today, it was raining and cold and I started to get light headed. Apparently I forgot to eat before I left.
Typing without looking is getting better! BTW.
I'm still having problems with my computer. I'm beginning to hate vista more and more.
Matt and Heather are getting on well, I'm getting to know her better and she is a good match for him, I'm happy about that.
The odd thing of today was Jesse talked to me out of the blue. I'm happy he did but I'm still hurting form that whole ordeal. To better explain, we attempted to date. I went mad and blew the whole thing by being stupid and petty. He broke my heart and I can't help but still shed a tear for it once and a while. Like now so I'm going to change the subject.
We found out Pepper (our rescue cat), is 12 years old and has ear mites again.
Melanie (George) and I have been hanging out a lot and I have enjoyed the company, she helps me stay busy so I don't go crazy. George is my girl! (had to do a shout out)
We got a new Puppy! His name is Goose. The shelter named him Gray Goose but we shortened it. We think he is Wiemerinor/Sharpe mix. Others are saying lab too, we won't know till his eyes are done changing colors. Right now they are a bright blue and we think Sharpe because of the tail curl and spots on his tongue. Mum really hopes not chow but he has already proven to be very smart so far, at ten weeks!! He knows Come, sit, stay and he is almost potty trained.
I'm still waiting for SSI to come through so I'm still broke as hell. But even that has a new light. I'm slowly learning, with help, that my friends don't care about that and it's not as necessary as I was raised to believe. True I am limited to what I can do, but we don't generally do things that cost money and there seems to always be something to do. I enjoy "just hangin" (although I'm trying to convince people to get bikes so I'm not alone on bike rides lol)
It's been a while since I've updated, I've been hearing complaints as to my not doing so. So I will try to better rectify that, in the meant time, here is this one. Enjoy!

Chapter Twelve: Once again I've hurt someone without meaning to.

I'm off to the hospital again. I'm worried about my own safety and the safety of others atm. I am sabitaging my own life. This is great.

Chapter Eleven: Just a taste

Not to long ago
Rebecca Rose
I was hurtin pretty bad till you came round
I was a poor lonely girl just dredging around
Lonely and hurt I thought I was done and gone
Just thinking I was the worlds biggest pawn
But now that I sit here I have hope
It makes my mind easy to cope
I think about the perfect situation to kiss
Then I think more and my mind goes amiss
You call it Midwestern hospitality I call it cowboy
Holding your hand would be a delicious joy
I hope you like this you know who its for
Perhaps if you do I'll even write more
This crush isn't old but the feelings are
Maybe even one day they will be above par.

Chapter Ten: giddy as a school girl

Only a few people know how to turn my very red. Well, Joe now knows how. I feel like I'm in high school again. Lol. It's a nice feeling to have, since I missed a lot of my high school things. I have another date set up with Joe. I can't wait. But I will see him on Sunday too. /giddy chirp. /sigh I'm such a dork. I'm an old romantic. I have to be careful though. I must keep my distance for a bit, at least till I know him better. I almost kissed him on our first date, but I with held to keep modesty.

On another note, I missed my bus today. So I'm going to be on the computer all day doing school work.

Chapter Nine: depression hits hard today

I just want to be that old couple that everyone looks up to because they have been together for years upon years, and they are still in love. I know I'm only twenty but that's what I want. /sigh. I don't fear a lot of things, but that is one thing I do fear. Not having that one day. The movie "Up" kind of reminded me of that. I think my depression is kind of hitting me today. I think LARP will do me some good.