Up all day, up all night

I went to see President Obama speak at my High school yesterday. The speech was awesome and visiting my old high school and seeing the changes was great. However, I got a nasty sunburn, heat stroke and a long walk home. I think it was worth it though. I enjoyed myself and helped three people who fainted from heat stroke. I counted ten people from the crowd who dropped like flies. My friend and roommate got three of us VIP tickets so we go to stand up front and center. It was great!

In other news, my nerves are still attacking me. I am taking a lot of medication to make the worst of it go away, but the doctors finally (maybe) figured out what is wrong. Here in a few hours I will be starting a daily shot of B12 at the doc's for a week, then once a week for four weeks, then once a month for 4 months. then they will take a test again to see how much I have in my system. I have a feeling though, I am going to get sick a few times. I had to take multi vitamins (doc's orders) until I could start the shot and I get really quizy and sick every time I take one. I am terrified that it won't work. I am also afraid that since the doc mentioned it could be why I am crazy, that it won't help that either. We are going through this process to see how I process B12. If I can at all. With my current diet it doesn't make sense that it was so low. So we will see. I am hopeful and scared.

My chest attacked my tonight. It was painful. I am tired of pain. The mental and physical. I am just tired, but that may be the B12 deficient, and maybe with this corrected, I will be normal, and not have to suffer like this. Or make others suffer with me.

I have left people behind, because they hurt me to much, or I was hurting them. I am not regretful. I am hopeful, that one day, those people will see what I did for them, and me.