The end of a blog

It's been awhile, I am aware. So update time again. The nerve problem, ended up being a lack of vitamins. It would explain a lot of physical problems from the past. Now I eat specific things and take vitamin supplements from Dr. Ratliff. (My nutritionist and chiropractor)B-12 and Vit D are apparently important and my body doesn't process it normally, as in, only about half of what I take in, is what was explained to me. Fortunately I have stopped taking the pills the doc gave me and have been using the supplements. I still get pings once in a while, but not so often. I am not wheelchair bound, I can walk normally, I'm good. I've even been going to the gym again and trying to get into track shape again. I haven't been there since the hospital. Further updates. I have already had one job and quit and have now started a new one. I worked at Vantage Point Consulting/ World Wide Marketing. It was a dream opportunity with none of the pay-out. Door to door sales, while selling something good, was not my idea of a good job. Especially when it's 102 out and I didn't bring enough water. It was a job for the stronger of will, but I need to pay bills and keep food on the table and it wasn't cutten' it. Now I have finished my first week of training at Teleperformance and it doesn't seem as bad at I have been told. Having been on the floor it looks like I will be busy enough and I have made a few friends to keep sane during the tedious training. As for the Mad Ravings, I am still odd. I have calmed down a lot and unless I'm pissed can keep fairly calm and only to an "annoyed" level. I haven't taken medication in a long time, but since I have been working, cabin fever has gone away. Three years of it should be enough. It's taken me three years to grow up, sad, but it's sooner then some people my age. At this point any illnesses associated with my name have been erased except PTSD and maybe still paranoia. I haven't been able to see Don (my therapist) because my case worker decided since I was working, she didn't need to talk to me anymore. This has since been resolve with a stern talk on my part. We will meet Thurs, and fix stuff. On another note, with the TP job I will be finally able to get rid of SSI, Foodstamps and get regular insurance. Peace of mind at last and no more leaching off the government. Matt and I are doing great. I would like him to get a job sometime soon but I can't push to hard or he will fight back. It's just how he is. It's stressful, being broke always is, but we will manage. I have three roommates, one that just left and another coming in to fill the spot. I like my roommates and Matt is one of them so it works out. Us living together this time has worked out far better then the last time. This time I haven't been to the hospital and it's been over a year. Almost two now. I read back at previous posts and think, wow, I can be a whiny B*****. But then I remember the state I was in at those times and it makes sense. This was made so I could vent about my problems and why I feel justified in being upset. Having been upset at the time I made this, but I also look and realize, things have changed. I have changed. I am far more mature, experienced, and sane. I know the breaking points I have and I know how to keep calm. I suppose this is an end to a blog. It's about the Mad Ravings of a lunatic, and sort of a diary of crazy becoming sane. But I don't see myself as a lunatic anymore, so I am no longer feeling justified in being called such. I'm not normal, but I am sane.