This HAS been a while.

To first update, I am no longer as crazy as I once was. I think this is because I have grown up. I'm 22 now. If I had an problems, they would be unbearable now without medication. I have indeed not taken medication for appro 9 months and I'm doing fine. Mentally at least. My diagnosis got down graded from schizo-affective to Borderline personality. This fits better then schizo, but still not well. I am also in the process of getting rid of the major depression and anxiety diagnosis. I feel they no longer apply. I do not deal with depression often and when I do it's mild and manageable nor do I deal with anxiety.
Currently I am a full time at Columbus State with two weeks left for this quarter and a break for the summer coming up. It will be nice. Last quarter did go well but this one is doing much better regardless of my physical worsening.
Also while I contend with doing well in school and manage my brain form exploding, my body has decided to rebel. My right side is failing. I go through a lot of pain somewhat regularly and then paralysis randomly. But only on the right. I am confined to a wheelchair for a month unless thing get worse and I need it longer. Sadly the doctors do not know whats wrong, nor have we made progress in trying to find out. I have an MRI scheduled soon but no one has told me when. I just know it'll be sooner then I see the doctor next month. It sucks being a cripple beyond my knee having a bad week. That I could handle. This sucks a lot more.
In other news, after two years of not dating Matt after my first trip to the hospital, we started dating again at the end of January this year. I have now moved in because with three other people around and no stairs, when I fall I usually have someone around to help me. I have to carry a whistle on me. Plus everyone is very willing to help and understanding. We actually feel like a family here most of the time. Of course I am playing the Mum role. "Clean your dishes!" I enjoy it though. Makes me feel useful and I think everyone here knows that.
This cane sucks. I think I'm not using it right because it kills my shoulder. Luckily I have a wrist brace from NERO so i don't have that problem. Occasionally I can get away with using just the cane if the wheelchair is to much. I have to use it sparingly anymore though. But the wheelchair makes me use my right more then I can tolerate. Carpet and slanting sidewalks, like my home and my entire school grounds, suck.
So to wrap up, doing well enough mentally, not so much physically, still doing larps but only handicap accessible ones, dating Matt, new home that looks like I'll be here a while at least, no news from docs.
Ta-ta for now.